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Title Two Minus One Equals Loneliness
Fandom Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairing Clint/Phil
word count 300
Warnings Canon to Avengers, character death...

Clint dusted the cocoa from the counter with his hand and wiped it on his pant leg, uncaring about the brown streak marking his black cargo pants. He took the bowl of homemade chocolate sauce, a spoon and his banana to the table. Sitting, he slowly spooned the chocolate over the banana and ate it bit by bit, trying to ignore how much his heart clenched with every bite. Phil had taught him how to make the chocolate sauce for his ice cream. The drizzling over a banana had been Phil's thing. Now it was his thing too. Maybe even more than the ice cream.

It was days like this, when he was feeling his lowest and missing Phil the most that he gave in and had the banana and chocolate, allowed the memories of what else they got up to with the chocolate sauce once the banana had been eaten. There were many nights it was spooned over his body. If he closed his eyes, he could picture Phil naked above him and sometimes he could feel the ghost of Phil's tongue licking the chocolate off him. Shivering, he dropped the spoon and the last bite of banana, pushing both away. He didn't know why he did this to himself. Tortured himself with memories of what never will be again. He missed Phil to the point it physically hurt. He wanted to pretend Phil was out there doing good and just couldn't come home, but he'd seen the video of Phil's death. Saw Phil's body. Touched his cold lifeless hand. He knew his fantasy was just that, a fantasy. Sometimes he still wanted to pretend even if it hurt more in the end, because in those times he was completely alone he needed to think Phil really was alive.

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kaige68
Feb. 14th, 2014 01:07 am (UTC)
My gosh the angst! Well done! You broke my heart, but it's beautiful!
lasairfhiona
Feb. 14th, 2014 01:33 am (UTC)
Thanks, broke mine too. This was not what I was planning on writing for the whole dipped in chocolate idea you put in my head...
kaige68
Feb. 14th, 2014 01:36 am (UTC)
Well it's great for today's angst prompt!
lasairfhiona
Feb. 14th, 2014 01:38 am (UTC)
That's what spurred it on, this was supposed to be the actual story of the chocolate sauce for tomorrow, until Clint saw the angst and that was all she wrote for my idea.
hanorganaas
Feb. 14th, 2014 02:42 am (UTC)
GAHHH CLINT BB -cries-

Well done.
lasairfhiona
Feb. 14th, 2014 02:56 am (UTC)
Thank you. :). Definitely wasn't what I was planning on writing.
hiddlepinebatch
Feb. 14th, 2014 05:31 am (UTC)
There needs to be a like button on this site, but I guess I'll work with a comment that says "pheeeeellllsssssss" :(
lasairfhiona
Feb. 14th, 2014 07:22 am (UTC)
I agree about the like button :)

Thank you!
haldoor
Feb. 14th, 2014 11:00 am (UTC)
Oh boy, you are really hitting all those hurty buttons, aren't you? Very ouchy, but so well written with it. ;-)
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