slashluv18 (slashluv18) wrote in 1_million_words,

C is for Choice

Title: Choice
Author: Samantha
Fandom: Harry Potter
Character/Pairing: Teddy/James Potter II
Rating: PG-13/T
Challenge/Prompt: 1_million_words A to Z Challenge: C
Warning(s): None
Word Count: 499
James worries about what will happen if he decides he never wants to be a dad.

James Sirius Potter sat by the Black Lack. He stared at the water, eyes focused on his reflection. There was no smile on his face, but he didn't expect there to be, not with everything that was on his mind.

He was going to graduate soon, and he had been in a relationship with Teddy for three years. His beloved was already talking about having kids, whether through adoption or a surrogate. Being an orphan, he wanted a big family. He loved the Weasleys and his godfather, but Teddy wanted a family of his own, one that he was able to take care of.

And James wasn't sure he wanted the same thing.

Teddy wasn't a saint and sometimes, he definitely wasn't sweet as sugar, but James was devoted to his boyfriend.

The two of them faced a lot of obstacles, including Andromeda and James's dad when they decided to come clean about their relationship. But they managed to get both of their blessings.

And James never wanted to deny Teddy anything, but when he realized he was gay, he was single at the time and thought he would never have to worry about becoming a dad. And he was happy about that.

But now...

James didn't know what to do. Maybe he should break up with Teddy, let his love find someone who wanted to be a parent as much as he did. It would kill James, but when you love someone, you want them to be happy, even if it's with someone else.

"Is this seat taken?"

James recognized the voice instantly. How could he not? He heard it in his dreams. "Teddy, what are you doing here?"

Teddy sat down next to him. "Well, since you weren't going to Hogsmeade, Professor McGonagall said I could come to Hogwarts to see you."

James nodded.

Teddy sighed. "If you think I don't know what has been bothering you, you must think I'm pretty stupid."

James opened his mouth to protest

"Just because you might not want me to have access to it, I know your heart and mind. And that includes your doubts."

James didn't bother denying it. "I want to give you everything you want, but –"

"But you don't know if you can," Teddy interrupted.

James sadly nodded.

Teddy wrapped his arms around the younger man and pulled him into a tight embrace. "And that's okay. Yes, I want to be a dad but not if it means losing you. No matter what has happened. No matter what you've done. No matter what you will do. I will always love you. I swear it. And that includes whether or not we become parents."

James turned his face against Teddy's chest, breathing in his scent. "I love you."

"I love you too. And who knows? You might decide you want to become a dad when you're a bit older. And if that never happens, we'll be fine. As long as we have each other, we'll be fine."

Tags: challenge: a to z, creation: fic

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