Author: Kat Lee
Character/Pairing: Kitty/Multiple, especially Kitty/Rachel, Kitty/Bobby, and Kitty/Peters
Challenge/Prompt: 1_million_words A to Z challenge: P
Word Count: 740
Disclaimer: All characters within belong to Marvel Comics and Disney, not the author, and are used without permission.
"It's not right," Kitty says, shaking her head. "I know it's not right, but I -- I'm still drawn to him, Ray."
"What makes you so darn sure it's not right?" her best friend asks. They're laying across Kitty's bed, their heads touching as they look up at the ceiling and their feet pointed in opposite directions. They were listening to music, but the CD stopped long ago. Neither girl has bothered to rise to change it. Kitty's lost in thoughts she doesn't want, and Rachel's far more interested in what's bothering her friend than the latest music in this decade.
Kitty shrugs. Lockheed coos from his place on her chest. She reaches down and scratches the dragon's head. It's great to have him back home again, but even he can't change the fact that her love life is messed up again.
"Come on, Kate," Rachel urges, slipping and calling her by the name of the version of her friend with which she grew up in her time period. "Sorry."
"Out with it."
"I just . . . I . . . " Kitty sighs, chews at her bottom lip. Her feelings are in such a jumble over Bobby. It's hard enough for her to understand it all; explaining it seems impossible. "Well," she tries again after a long pause and realizing that Rachel's not about to give up, "there's the whole age thing for one thing."
"Wisdom," Ray says pointedly.
"You know about that, huh?"
"Okay. So the age doesn't really bother me except he . . . He knew me when I was a kid, Rachel, and he was already an adult."
"That was different."
"I was crazy about him." Still am, the thought drifts unbidden through her mind, but Kitty catches it and stops herself from saying the words aloud just in time. "I really thought I loved him."
"And you don't love Bobby?"
"No. I . . . I like Bobby, but I don't love him."
"Then why are you with him?"
"I dunno." Lockheed bumps his head against her hand, and she resumes scratching him. "I guess . . . I just . . . I was lonely when we got together."
"And . . . And it's . . . It's pretty good most of the time."
"What? The sex?"
"No! Yes. No."
"Which is it, Kitty?"
"Both, I guess." She chews at her lip again. "I mean, Bobby's really sweet, and he's always concerned about me whenever I'm worried or having a bad day or something. I miss having that in a relationship. And the sex is good."
"But not great?"
"I've had better."
"Actually, no." Rachel can hear her friend's blush in her voice. "Wisdom."
Rachel chuckles. "You know," she admits, "I knew he was defeated before we ever started talking about him."
"You did? How?" She knows she hasn't been reading her mind without permission. She would have felt the invasion, even if she hadn't been able to stop her.
"Simple." Rachel shrugs. "He's not a Peter."
"Ray!" Kitty laughs, rolls around on her bed until she can reach her arm, and pushes at her friend. Ray, in a rare, innocent moment, reaches out and tickles her. Soon, the friends are in a tickling war, with Lockheed caught in the middle, and even the dragon is laughing.
When, after a while, they collapse onto Kitty's bed, Rachel's holding Kitty. Her head rests on her shoulder, and she looks down at her, finally allowing herself to think the thought she's been fighting for a long time now. She gazes at her beauty, at this innocent form of the woman with whom she long ago fell in love, and can't help thinking, None of us stand a chance. As long as our name's not Peter. Remorse hits her hard, but it's better this way. She can't stand to lose Kitty yet again. To lose her as a friend will be hard enough, but to love her and lose her is a Hell Rachel's not ready to face ever again.
"So when are you going to tell him?" she asks lightly.
"I don't know. Probably when I go to see Peter Quill again. I'll be gone for a while."
Ray groans and closes her eyes. "See?" she asks. "I knew it was a Peter!"
"We're just friends!"
"Right." The girls erupt into laughter again, and despite everything, Rachel has to smile. Maybe it won't be so hard to love Kitty again -- as long as she keeps her at a distance this time.